.. hmm well me and luke have beentogether now for almost 3 months ... i still love him to bits and even tho things havent been completely rosy the whole time .. only cos of the baby thing.. i kno things will work out soon well i hope so his ex girlfriend is still fucked up ... she could even be getting admitted to a pysche ward or sumthing like that she tried to kill herself crashed her car in a ditch . she drove down the road at 150 km/h and then turned off her lights shes really fucked a .. i dunno luke wants to help her but i kno the way he is and i kno he wont care bout how hes feeling bout everything or even if hes happy, he just wants to make sure his baby is ok .. i just wish he would just think bout me a lil bit more i kno that maybe sounds selfish but .. i dunno ive tired to tell him that im here and if he needs me il be there and everything like that ive already told him i will help with the baby and hes happy bout that idea too he was looking forward to it. wen i finish college at the end of the year i was gunna move in and then i could help with baby while he was at work.. and yea it would of been good .. i just hope he realises im there thru it all and that he doesnt need to do all that alone.. he says he doesnt wanna hold me back and that its not fair on me wen hes trying to sort out all the baby stuff but really i just wanna be there for him i just wanna help him thru it .. im meant to be going to the ball this year too yay ... thatl be fun :S not really... that is not unless lukes there with me ... well i should stop being stupid i mean not like anyone reads this not like anyone can give me advice or anything also i could be pregnant and thats .. kinda a major thing cos i kno if there wasnt all this shit going on with trina luke would be happy as and stuff but i think if i am i dunno wether id tell him i dont think its wat he needs right now somthing else to worry bout :S oh well ... bye.